ღ chapter 7: Blood sheds

after a few days, i manage to got our of that mansion and went straight back home... mr. Yuuto Ikegami just told me to comeback, which my poster father knows yet he didnt do anything about it. weird but good, my poster father is becoming good to me... but i think its just simple kindness...

before i left the mansion, teiji told me "doesnt mean you are the deep crimson, you can alreaday take keiko;s position as my guardian... she might be worthless for yuuto but you are more worthless for me... so please, if you dont want to hear ore harsh words, step back!" hurt? yah, i got hurt... its been a long time since i felt such thing... but no matter what teiji says to me... even if he cursed me... i will protect him... and if he kills me, my last words would be ~yah, i am dying but atleast you are the one who caused it... not just anyone...~ i dont care if he hates me... i just want to love him... no matter what happens, i'll do everything... and anything just for him... yah, i know... it is stupidity... but not mere benevolence... i am so stuoid.. falling for a person that doesnt even care for me! and even wants to kill me! but its ok... as long as those are his wishes, i cannot do anything but to follow his orders...

right now, i am at the rooftop of the school... thinking about how stupid i am... for a cold human being like me, loving is such a wonderful experience... getting hurt but atleast you dont feel empty...

i was staring at the skies when i saw teiji... he was also gonna watch the day sky... i guess he likes it too...

"you know... i really hate people that makes keiko feel so depressed...yah, YOU!" he shouted.
"well you see, i dont have anything to do about those things..." i replied
"i dont care! you made her depressed and i hate you for that!" he shouted... uhmm... hate me?! just because of stupid positions?! he really loves this girl, enough to make him look stupid... and again, he spoke harsh words...
" you?! ahahahaha!!! the eep crimson? darn! i cannot even believe that! i see it in your eyes, you are brutal and has a cold heart! and i know you will someday kill us all... i already know you're a traitor!" ...
"i already told you, it is not my fault..." i answered with a soft voice... i was scared...
"not your fault?! c'mon... i saw keiko's tears and i didnt like them... she told me it was because of you!" he fired back.
"how caould you love a person that doesnt even love you truly?! how can you love a person that is obviously just using you?!" i told him...
then...
"darn you! how could you say that?!" he then smashed winds at me and walked out of the rooftop...

so i was there... lying, my soul was half dead and my heart was bleeding severely... not because of the pain caused by wounds... but cause of his words... but its true, how can you love a person like that?! i tried to sit and then quietly cry... i cannot believe this is happening, tears fell down from my eyes, i feel like... dying... he really hates me... that keiko is so clever, using her charms to kill me... sich a good strategy... well, what can i do?! i really love the ranmyaku... no... i love teiji ishihara... i saw some blood in my shoulders and some on my knees... but i cannot feel the pain caused by these wounds... only by his words...